The truth is, I've never fooled anyone, I've always let them fool themselves, they didn't bother to find out who I really was instead they would invent a character for me. They were obviously loving & hating someone I wasn't.



Monday, April 16, 2012

Urban Lifestyles

I would never describe it as my neighborhood because I don't own it, none of these streets or housing projects belong to me it’s just a block. The two neighborhoods I grew up in were Valencia Gardens and SunnyDale housing projects located in San Francisco California. I would describe the environment to be lower income, mostly minorities where a lot of struggles and violence occurs. Babies are delivered in split second just like lives are taken without any remorse. The community I grew up in, the same day of a burial service, a teenage boy gets murdered in cold blood right down the street. Now I shed tears from my heart and soul. To think the community I'm supposed to be from could barely stay alive, and all I could do is ask is why? Why must all my African Americans die our murder rate in San Francisco is so high that our stories are pointless to the press.
 I am who I am because the neighborhood I lived in my heart is cold I trust no one I understand the fact there is no love in these streets. I look at every other black person at times expecting the worst she’s mad because I have long hair or a Gucci purse. I trust no one and push everyone away I shy away from my responsibility sometimes because I believe I don't have what it takes. Being from this environment sometimes I felt as if I will never have no way out, sometimes I just sit alone and think about all the lives that have been taken. I am who I am despite the neighborhood I lived in. I want to unleash my potential and reach for the stars. I want to be more than just the average baby mother, I refuse to apply for GA, I want own wage I'm a teen transforming into a woman. How I was raised my thoughts will never be the same. I wake up with a smile everyday surround by haters judging me expecting failure but I want allow it to be possible. Despite the environment I'm surround by I will live my life to the fullest. I don't want my name to be on a shirt stating that I got hit with a bullet. I want my name to be on a billboard stating that our generation will pull through it. Despite this environment I will rise above I want to be way more than just the average thug.           
 

1 comment:

  1. I thought this was a great blog. Your writing is very nice, almost poetic. I feel like I could hear your voice while I was reading along. Reading about your neighborhood reminds me a lot of my upbringing and we have similar life goals of rising above the environment we come from. I can't wait to read more!

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